THE MOMENT I CAN'T FORGET

It was around 14 years ago, the worst day for my entirely life. I was just 6 years old. At that time my father was ill. He was very suffering.

One day, my mother asked me to come to my father’s house, *at that time,  they were living separate. I refused to come over to my father. Because I did not want go alone. Then, my mother and I went to my uncle’s house. We were sitting at the terrace and the old people were talking to each other, meanwhile I did not remember what I did. About one hour later, the person from my father house came to our place, and he said unbelievable words. He said that my father already passed away. I was speechless. I could not say anything or crying. I did not remember what was in my mind. Then we went to my father place. I saw him with the cloth covered his body. I saw his face. He was really thin. I did know why I was not crying at that time. And until know i regretted that i refused to come to my father. May be he wanted me and my sister beside him in his last breath. It was my biggest fault, it was my biggest regretful. I am so sorry,,,Father.

The beautiful things that I remember till know was when my father took me to the school for the first time. It was my first day become an elementary student. Why it was very meaningful to me ? because it was the first time and the last time he took me to the school. For the next day I went with my neighbors. Now, when I saw my friends accompanied by their father, I got very jealous. I wish my father was beside me at that time. Besides,  my father never got mad or scold me. He was very kind, very lovely although his appearance looks frighten. He was the man who I love the most in the world.

People says that I looks very similar with my father. Of course because I have dark skin as well as my father. He was very dark but handsome. He got tanned because he was a sailor. My grandmother said that if you want to see your father’s face, just look yourself in the mirror. I can’t believe that, but I am happy. I am very happy that he is my FATHER. I LOVE YOU FOREVER